Monday, December 14, 2009

Bandaids

It seems the road has been tough for many recently and for some reason mine has gotten a little easier. I have had some great friends and family to carry me thru times when I couldn't even crawl and maybe now its my time to carry them.

We can't always say the right thing or make someone do what we feel is for the best, but we can stand beside them, behind them and at times in front of them to guide and protect.

Never give up on a friend, even when they fight like hell to push you away. It's not easy and they may not want you around at times and may need to be left alone. Just don't leave them alone for long... stay with and near them... in touch with them anyway you can... nice messages, kind words or comments, whatever feels right and good.

We all have bad memories... sores that hurt a lot... but i was once told by a very wise man that we need to allow our wounds to open so they can heal. They just can't be allowed to stay open for long because that's what makes a scar.

We all need a bandaid now and then and someone to put it on for us... even if we know we can do it ourselves. Its called caring... its called love.

So here is to bandaids... may we all have plenty to share!
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"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop."
~ Meredith Grey
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A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success, "Never leave that till tomorrow which you can do today."
This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure or fear of rejection? Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? "The early bird catches the worm" "A stitch in time saves nine" "He who hesitates is lost" We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant...

That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying.
~ Meredith Grey

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"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that it's happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away."
~ Meredith Grey

Thursday, December 10, 2009

For my nephew - In The Morning of the Magicians

My nephew is an amazing artist. I recently asked him what his favorite song was and he said "In The Morning Of The Magicians" by The Flaming Lips. The song speaks of such sorrow as well as beauty and it did surprise me at first that it would be his favorite. Then I realized how much sorrow he has endured in his life and I understood. It hurts me some to listen to it because I know of his pain... he lost his father at a young age... and yet he has endured and succeeded in spite of, or maybe because of that pain. To me this song is so heartfelt and sad yet there is a beauty inside it. Ahhh, yes.. my nephew is a true artist!

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Bonnie Hunt parody of American Idol audition

This has got to be the FUNNIEST parody EVER of American Idol! Bonnie Hunt is AMAZING!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

In Memory of my Father... Oct 31, 1934 to July 6, 2009

This is one of the hardest posts I have ever made. How can I not know what to say about a man who raised me and taught me so many things? Maybe once I stop crying the words will find their way.  Music has always been an avenue for me to feel and relate my thoughts so why stop now?
My dad passed away after a long battle with lung cancer on July 6, 2009. There are many things I will always remember and hold close to my heart about my dad and one is when he played this song for me and my son, about ten years ago. There was a look in his eyes which was sad yet proud and is one of the values he taught me and I will always honor... to remember the "little man". 


Friday, July 03, 2009

Kevin Skinner on America's Got Talent

My mom taught me many things and one of them was to never judge a book by its cover.  We all have gifts and there are angels among us  so be kind and treat others as you would like to be treated. Even a chicken catcher has talent... ever tried to catch a chicken?  Kevin Skinner caught many chickens by hand and he can sing from his heart and soul... Much love to you, Kevin Skinner!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

People are crazy

My parents are so opposite yet very loving and when raising me, they taught me some very good morals. I love them both very much and until I find the words to describe how much they both mean to me I give you this song (don't I always have a song?) Thank you for teaching me the message in this song :)

Monday, March 09, 2009

My Brother...

I wrote this a few years ago. As you may have realized by now, writing doesn't come easy for me, but I have moments when it just pours. This was one of those moments.
I am not denying my parents' role in my life, they have done a great job with what they were given. They had to because I was their child. But my brother and sister didn't have to do anything for me but yet they did and I am so grateful.

My Brother
 
My strength
My friend
My truth
My ally
My guidance
My heart
My eyes
My teacher
My hero
My musician
My poet
My storyteller
My icon
My mainstay
My sounding board
My shoulders
My backbone
My lessons
My right
My wrong
My listener
My supporter
My role model
My light
My laughter
My forgiver
My protector
My father
My life

Thank you for all you have done for me. You have been my totem pole, always strong and supportive. As an uncle and a teacher you have instilled your honesty and integrity in my son. I am so grateful to have you in my life and so proud to have you as my brother!

I love you with all my heart... your little sis

Below is a song by Steve Vai titled, "Brother".   It is a song I feel very close to and says so much even without words...